It has taken me almost a year to post about the passing of my horse La Undena`.
When I was notified by my neighbor that my mare was down and not looking good in the front pasture. I cried out WHY?
I heard a voice. It was Dena's voice, " I'm making room for another horse."
What? Noooooooo I cried.
I won't go into what all transpired over the two days. I was grateful she went pretty fast and was at home with us. She had a stroke and with in a day she was gone. I was thinking I don't want to sit around grieving her death. I want this to be different. Didn't know what it would be. I began noticing the gifts that came from her transition. To this day I'm still receiving new awareness's about life and death.
I sat in the chair pretty much stunned. I raised Dena`, she was my pride and joy. My husband ( who is a certified Farrier) said the sweetest thing. You know I've known thousands of horses. Dena` was the best.
My other mare Mia was running around in the pasture looking for Dena`. I talked to her often and told her we would work through this together. She's not alone. I also told Dena` that if she wanted to hang around (spirit form) or even come back I would welcome her with open arms and heart!
I knew i needed to find another horse and fast to keep Mia company. I looked on the internet surprised at myself for even looking so soon after Dena's passing. Nothing felt right. My girlfriend called and offered one of her horses. I declined again didn't feel right. She offered another one. I said thank-you but no I'll wait. Later looking online again, I heard a voice outside of my head ask.
" What do you really want?"
I blurted out - I'd love a Black Hanoverian foal out of Lortzing Dena's sire! I surprised myself with my answer and then let it go not telling anyone including my hubby. The next day I went over to a friend's to help with things, she was the one that offered the possible pasture mates for Mia. I told her that i would like to help her with taking care of her kids. She was going through a divorce and could really use some extra help. She then said well I have proposition for you. Take Lexus and have her bred to Lortzing.
I then told her what I blurted out the night before. What's so amazing is Lexus is a purebred registered Trakehner and is Black/brown. Lortzing is Black. I had there thought of a Trakehner crossed with a Hanoverian before. The universe gave me glimpse the spring before Dena died. I was at a Dressage riding clinic and on day 2 got talking more with the riders. The one gal had a striking black gelding. Guess what he was? Yup you guessed it Trakehner/Hanoverian. In my opinion he got the best of both worlds.
There's more to the story and the gifts I've received that I have been inspired to write a book telling the tale, and how all along the way I use different manifesting tools to attract what I desired.
A sneak preview- Lexus was at the Veterinary clinic for just a day, and my girlfriend was available that morning to take Lexus to be bred. This indeed was a miracle as she works alot and just happened to catch her in heat. The attending Veterinarian said she was ready Now to be bred. WOW! The help on hand said that was the fastest on record for settling a mare. LOL Oh and did I tell you that Lortzing had passed in 2011. I promise I'll get the whole story down soon.
Happy Trails, and to my dear mare La Undena`who continues to teach me up in Heaven, I love you!
So here we are fast forward and Lexus is about 5 1/2 months pregnant carrying a Lortzing foal. I'm Blessed beyond measure. :)
Lexus - happy addition to our family.
One day my older mare Dena` came up lame. I asked her, what was up?
She said, I don't want to go to that trainer. The other mare said, me too!
I answered, you won't, I promise. She walked off sound.
She had an awareness and then with her lameness brought it to my attention. How cool is that?
Horses are tuned into everything.
I later had the chance to find out more about this horse trainer. I'm so glad my mare brought this to my attention and I listened as their training methods are old school. Not what I desire for my horses.
Lameness can be totally different than what you may think it is. That's why is good to ask questions.
I was asked to give a Riding lesson to a client of mine. I watched her ride for a bit to get a sense of where she was at with her horse. There was cones set up outside so I asked her to go around them. She missed them completely at a walk let alone a trot. hmmmm. I could see her frustration. I asked how many lessons she has had? She thought for a minute and said oh about 2 years worth. I was shocked as this lady looked like she had never been on a horse before. Time to go to work. I asked her who was her favorite rider? She said without hesitation "Kyra Kyrklund." I then did a process that allowed her to download this rider's unique abilities as horsemen. I asked her then to walk around the arena then we went outdoors again to the orange cones. She moved her horse around the cones beautifully. We ended the lesson with smiles.
Did you know C.J. is available to travel to your barn. Use the "Contact form" to get in contact and set up your own Horse & Rider Reconnected Session. Your horse will thank-you!
Many years ago I fell off my mare La`Undena` on a trail ride. It wasn't her fault but due to a 4- wheeler spooking us. I held a grudge against this guy and all 4-wheelers. One day I was hanging out with my mare La`Undena`. She said to me "when are you going to forgive that guy?" I asked "who was she talking about?" She then said "the 4-wheeler man." I said "why do you say that?" She looked me in the eye and said "maybe it's time to forgive?" What I haven't told you is that after the fall I walked with a bad limp. I had to swing my right leg when I walked.
For a moment I thought about how 4-wheelers actually help people, and maybe I could forgive him now. So I did the Ho`oponopono process of Forgiveness.
Please Forgive me
I Love You
When I was done I turned to walk down the hill towards the house. After a few steps I noticed that I wasn't swinging my right leg. My LIMP WAS GONE!
We may not realize how holding a grudge can be keeping us from being free. My mare La`Undena` invited me to free myself. Luckily I listened.
I had an Epiphany the other day. I looked around me, and noticed I'm not enjoying what I have.
Why is this I asked myself?
To answer this let's take a look at the 3 steps to being a deliberate creator.
It's the last one that I have found most difficult. I'm a "GIVER." Are you? Even after I attracted what I desired, I wouldn't let the item or animal etc. contribute to me. YIKES!
Did you know that everything wants to contribute to YOU?
Being a "Giver" you can be missing something magical and your also denying others to gift to you. Even what we may call inanimate objects or your business want to contribute to the richness and fullness of your life.
Here's some new questions I started asking.
I wonder what contribution my horse can be to me today, tomorrow, and next week?
I wonder how much more contribution I can receive from my ________________?
My Truck & Trailer? (When I let my Jeep Grand Cherokee contribute to me, I get better gas mileage.. Yup no fooling).
What about our Horses? Yes they can receive "Contribution" too!
I wonder how much more contribution my horse can receive from his/her grain?
Play with this and please write your comments below what you notice after asking these questions. Until next time
All rights reserved